I'm in the middle of class right now, freezing cold and the lecturer has just asked us to derive some formula but while my other classmates are busy doing their calculations, I'm here posting a blog entry. Why? Because I couldn't care less. I don't know why but I'm so distracted today. There's this feeling bugging me and I can't put a finger on it. Maybe I do know the reason but I just can't comprehend why is it even affecting me when it shouldn't. I find it really amusing in a not funny way. Maybe it's because I'm too used to having company and someone beside me all the time and I will start to feel lonely extremely fast compared to normal people. These are the times when I will start feeling all negative and stupid thoughts will run through my mind making me feel low out of nothing at all. It's stupid I know but everyone have their own version of a moment which they know is dumb but they can't help it. Since I can't help it, all I can do is hope that after a period of time it will get better as I slowly get use to it. For now, I promise to you guys that as much as it affects me, I will do my utmost not to let affect anyone else around me.

#lackoflove #foreveralone
Hashtags that I used for jokes with friends have never felt so true up til now. But fortunately for me, I still have that handful who are determined to keep those tags as jokes.

Firstly of course its my family, there will never be a lack of love with them. They are always there for me even when I've let them down countless times. I love each and every one of them though I show it in my own peculiar way.

And of course my BFF. You may have probably seen the phrase "friends are those who make time out of their schedule for you but best friends won't even look at their schedule." That is what my bff have been doing all these while ever since I rejoined the forever alone club. We may have our ups and downs but I've appreciated everything you have done for me even though I admit to bullying you most of the time but you know I don't mean it. Lots of love to my dearest Zoe Wong. <3

It's a brand new year. But I'm not gonna start talking about how good it's gonna be or bla bla bla. Maybe abit later but for now, I'm gonna go all nostalgic and reminisce on the year that just left us. So if you don't want to see my sentimental side, I suggest you leave now.

Twenty eleven. Started it off as a fireman and a boyfriend. But by mid-way, I lost both statuses. One by force, the other by choice. It may be over but I'll keep all the good memories along with me this year and all the years to come. And then I became a student again, was like an excited school kid going to class for the very first time but the excitement died as soon as I was spammed with countless formulas which made no sense to anyone without long graying unkempt hair and a disastrous sense of fashion. Next of course was the time in everyone's life where they enter, that's if they weren't already born with a silver-spoon in their mouths, reality. In other words, get a job. I got mine after 2 months of my brief freedom. Wasn't my first obviously, but it was my first full time one. Only sucky thing about it that I can think of is probably the fact that I have to pay ERP everyday now to get to work. Other than that it's pretty slack, I managed to picked it up relatively quick. But I'm definitely not gonna stick around long if I ever wanna get my dream ride.

Now that is where this year comes into the picture. In another 2 days, operation R6 will be in full force as I'll be able to enroll for class 2. And after that its all just about saving up for XiaoP's big brother. Which was why like I said earlier, sooner or later I will have to find a new job which will allow me to achieve that faster. I can still do it with my current job but then I will have to sacrifice other totally unnecessary things in life. But that's not important right now.

Well, what's new year without resolutions right? Honestly, I have never bothered making any resolutions before. But this year I figured what the hell. People always say that they never manage to hold on to their resolutions for long so I thought to myself, Challenge Accepted. I'm not a superstitious person or anything but I feel it will be better if I don't type it down publicly until I've achieved or failed it in order not to jinx it. So you'll just have to wait and see.

On a final note, I would like to wish anyone who even bothered reading this, if I've ever did anything you think I shouldn't have to you directly or otherwise, I hope you would be able to put it behind you just like how 2011 is behind us now. As for wishes go, I sincerely wish that this would be a good year for you as much as I wish it would be for me. Signing off now with a belated

HAPPY NEW YEAR

I felt compelled to blog when I saw the commercial on Suria about a Malay movie that is gonna played on new year. It wasn't just any movie. It was the first Malay movie that you watched together with me and one which both of us fell in love with. It made us tear and it was special for me because it was the first time you watched a movie in my mother tongue. What made it even more meaningful was that you were able to fully appreciate and understand it. Not only did you love the movie, you loved the song as well. The second Malay song you ever liked. The first of course is none other than Misha Omar - Pulangkan. Yes, I remembered. And of course we both knew that you fell in love with Farid Kamil as well, that part I didn't enjoy as much even though I have to agree that he is good-looking.

Just watching that commercial brought back so much sweet loving memories to me which I will forever keep and remember and I hope you do too. I will always look back at those times with a smile. I do not regret any of it. (:

Just got back home. Thats 2 straight late nights on work days. And tomorrow is the start of school. But I ain't complaining. Meeting the boys is always worth it. I may not have had the best secondary school life but I met some of my best bros in life there.

So well I was at work earlier with nothing to do so I spent the time fbing and tweeting. Which was when I realize how pathetic some people are in their relationships. I'm not judging because I do not know what you guys have been through but it's really sad to see people posting their fights and arguements or whatever online where everyone can see. Honestly, what is the point in that? Do you want people to counsel you or what? And if somebody comments something you don't wanna see, you tell them to stfu and myob. But dude/babe, you posted it online for everyone to see and comment freely in the first place.

Also here are two things you need to know. Firstly when your friends comment trying to show concern. 99% of the time they are just curious and they don't give a shyt. Secondly, when a person or people from the opposite gender posts words so sweet that you wished why isn't your partner like that? 99% of the time they just wanna get in your pants.

So here's a bit of advice for those who love to publicly display their relationship problems for the world to see. You look at other happy couples online who always post sweet stuff to each other and never seem to have an argument. You think they never disagree on anything ever? Of course they do, they just don't show it to the world. It is your own domestic problems so keep it that way. At times it can get pissifyingly annoying.

Online social media is just like taking a photograph. When you take a photo obviously you would wanna look good in it. You wouldn't want people to see a photo of you when you just got up of bed right?

Keep your ugly side for your partners to see and still wanna be with you even after they've seen it. Thats the beauty of a relationship. :)

Suddenly felt like blogging so here I am now. At work. With absolutely nothing to do. I'm amazed that I did not fall asleep today even with only 2 hours of sleep last night. And if you know me well, 2hrs of sleep is equivilant to 10mins in my time.

Well anyway since I'm already here. Lets see what has happened so far since my last entry.

Oh yeah remember I had an accident and XiaoP had to go for surgery. It's been 7 weeks and he's still not back yet. And the excuse the 'hospital' gave was "everyday raining ah". I can choose to be hopping mad and curse and swear but it won't make XiaoP ready any faster so I'll just wait patiently and when the time comes to collect, I'll pay them a lil lesser than what we agreed and if they ask why. Guess what I'll say?

I didn't post any entry for last month at all and if you read my last post I was complaining of how fucked up my October was gonna be because all my plans had been ruined. But on the contrary, it unexpectedly turned out great. Great would be an understatement right now because it was the best month of the year by far!

I didn't get to go for the motogp in sepang or zouk in kl but I did however went for code: colour clash at zouk sg which was rainbowfully awesome! Also got to go to the halloween horror nights event in USS thanks to bff. We had literally a hell of a time. And of cos not forgetting halloween! Got to be a surgeon for the night. And what a better night to be one when hot girls dress up as hot nurses. Dreams do come true. Even if its temporal. :)

More updates soon. Preparing to head home now after a 'long hard day's' work. ;)

All my plans for October has been ruined! That includes my KL zouk/motogp weekend and my halloween plans! No thanks to that stupid ah beng licenseless moronic assholic cunt of a driver who made me fall and skid  cause I had to avoid his mindless abrupt lane change when I was right beside him. Worst part was the bugger ran away scot free and I didn't get a single cent of compensation. And because of that now XiaoP is in the hospital for major reconstructive surgery which is gonna take a month and all of the expenses are coming out of my own pocket. No amount of the word FUCK is sufficient to curse that son of a hairy one eyed dung eating shemale cockroach. Perhaps its just karma getting back at me. If it is then I'm sure it will get back at him and bite his cheekless ass.

So my baby sister has finally flown off leaving me siblingless for the next 9 months. Gonna be different and definitely alot quieter now. Not the same without her around. Can't believe I cried my eyeballs out when we were sending her off at the airport. Hugs and well wishes were given. But just when she was bout to go in and she came to me and said, "abang i want another hug." that was when the dam, that was already struggling to hold back the tears, literally fell apart.

I may not say it often or i may never even have said it before cos u noe being a guy and all the egoistic genes that we were born with. But you are the best sister any hot brother can ever have. After all the bullshyt we've had to go through together at such a young age only made our bond stronger. We've never been seperated for such a long period before so i definitely will need some time to get used to it.

I know mum nags about this alot and it seems like i dont care but please do take care of urself when u're over there. No matter what you are still my little sister and i will always worry for you.

Always2 keep me n mum updated on everything that is going on there.

I really should stop here now. Im posting this early morning at work cos i alr miss u that much and its gonna be hard to explain to my colleagues if they see me teary eyed.

Lotsoflove,
BBE