I'm in the middle of class right now, freezing cold and the lecturer has just asked us to derive some formula but while my other classmates are busy doing their calculations, I'm here posting a blog entry. Why? Because I couldn't care less. I don't know why but I'm so distracted today. There's this feeling bugging me and I can't put a finger on it. Maybe I do know the reason but I just can't comprehend why is it even affecting me when it shouldn't. I find it really amusing in a not funny way. Maybe it's because I'm too used to having company and someone beside me all the time and I will start to feel lonely extremely fast compared to normal people. These are the times when I will start feeling all negative and stupid thoughts will run through my mind making me feel low out of nothing at all. It's stupid I know but everyone have their own version of a moment which they know is dumb but they can't help it. Since I can't help it, all I can do is hope that after a period of time it will get better as I slowly get use to it. For now, I promise to you guys that as much as it affects me, I will do my utmost not to let affect anyone else around me.
#lackoflove #foreveralone
Hashtags that I used for jokes with friends have never felt so true up til now. But fortunately for me, I still have that handful who are determined to keep those tags as jokes.
Firstly of course its my family, there will never be a lack of love with them. They are always there for me even when I've let them down countless times. I love each and every one of them though I show it in my own peculiar way.
And of course my BFF. You may have probably seen the phrase "friends are those who make time out of their schedule for you but best friends won't even look at their schedule." That is what my bff have been doing all these while ever since I rejoined the forever alone club. We may have our ups and downs but I've appreciated everything you have done for me even though I admit to bullying you most of the time but you know I don't mean it. Lots of love to my dearest Zoe Wong. <3